Talking to myself

1. I *CANNOT* stand people with no common sense. Just what is so difficult about putting papers in the correct order? What has this person been doing, with 5 years of experience yet can't do simple things like putting things in simple running numerical order? Don't give me the crap that there were no instructions! Even the students know that they have to hand scripts up in numerical order. Don't give me "can't you understand?" I say "Yah, I can't understand why idiots like you exist on earth to give hell to nice people like us!" *applause please!*

You know, I have ethics - I refuse to engage myself in combat with someone whose skills are lower than mine. *HMPH!...Nose is high high up in the air*

2. With reference to an earlier entry about having blacklisted someone, I think I've come round to this - that I should never let the sun set on my anger. (All right, Item 1 above is another thing altogether because the person involved mentioned in Item 1 above is ...is...OHHH.. never mind. Come to my work place - you'll get the picture.)

So yes, I did a bit of soul searching & I came to the point that I should not be mean & hold negativity. Truth is, after the 'whiner's-whining-session-turned-insult-Milly-Me' session, the BL actually (& probably felt bad..heh!) talked to me first (IM is my other occupation, in case you didn't know). And muahahaha BIG BIG joke - just recently BL asked if I wanted to go for a run & swim. (Whoa!!! Biathalon! To me, biathalon = run & jump into the pool!! :p)

At the end of the day, I asked myself this - how long can anyone stay angry? Why would anyone want to stay angry? I suppose where I'm concerned, I do get angry but rarely do I keep my anger. In fact, I let it go very quickly. True, I go about bitching around complaining & air it out to the whole wide world but after that, it seems to disappear. I forgot how it feels to be that angry at that point of time. It is a good feeling to not feel angry no matter how maddening it could have been at that particular point of time. From the natural tendency to get work-up, there is a time to rise up above the natural to get supernatural & display divine characteristics/behaviour just as the Divine One above has shown towards me & everyone.

In the wise words of Yoda - "Fear leads to ANGER, ANGER leads to hate; hate leads to suffering."

Bottomline - Anger? It's simply defined as this:
A - Always
N - Negotiate
G - Generosity
E - Eventhough
R - Raged

Hey, didn't you know, most psychos are angry & bitter people who look like this? :p


Chill, dudes! :)