It's been...how long...? I'm now back in the Little Red Dot. With plenty of mixed feelings. In the weeks before I left Leeds, my feelings were clear for all to see. Everyone knew that I was sad and that I wasn't my usual perky self.
Actually, there isn't anything I should be complaining about. Really. I have a roof over my head. I have a job and a new job that starts in April. I have great family and friends. So what and why should I be grumbling about and being less-than-happy to be back here? I don't know now. I used to think that I would lose my freedom and be stifled. Well, to a certain extent, yes. I miss doing things at my own time and own target. But now, I still am able to do this except that I have to think of others who will be directly affected by my choices. Come to think of it, it isn't as bad as I thought. I find it rather annoying, though, to have my Mum just come into my room to borrow some of my things or just adjust the furniture or whatever in here. But she's the Mum. Enough said.
My Papa is great. He's been fantastic. He sends me to work every morning and I am so grateful for that. My Mum is so lucky to have him as her husband. He really has raised the bar so high that I'm afraid that it's difficult for me to find anyone to meet the standard :p I love the morning drives with him. Although I am probably half or three quarters asleep, there's always something to talk about, from mundane things like the traffic or just giggling and commenting about whatever that is being broadcast on BBC World at that moment. I cherish moments like these even though they are only about 20 minutes long.
It was really good to have my brother back for about 2 weeks. I missed him and I still do and I always will for as long as we're apart. We share the same genes, for goodness sake! And really, he's one guy who's really grown and will grow old with me. From an irritating fat boy to a smart, eloquent buff fella, I'm so proud of him.
On top of that, it was great meeting up with friends again. Still somemore friends to meet and catch up with but since I'm going to be here for a while, I shan't rush. It's strange though because I feel like I am not a part of their lives just because I've been away for a while. I feel like I can't seem to catch up with their lives, or have I really just got so used to the leisurely pace of life?
I am still finding the reason why I'm back here in this Little Red Dot. I hope I get my answer soon or else I will go mad. But for now, I shall just enjoy whatever opportunities and time I have. Who knows? The answer might be closer than I ever know.
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